Short hair, don’t care

A day before my birthday, I went back to my regular hair cut. I tried growing my hair out but that didn’t work out for me, so she’s back. Like most people can’t part with their long hair, I can’t part with my short hair. I love this cut because it’s just easier for me and I personally like this length on me more than my longer hair.

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Hi, today marks the 27 years I’ve been on this earth

I was never a fan of throwing birthday parties. I liked going to them, but never really liked the work that went behind throwing one. I think I liked them less as I got older because I knew people couldn’t show up and everyone is on a different schedule. Also, I hated the process of whether to do it at home or outside. If I did it at home, I had to buy decor, set up, prepare food, host, and clean up after. If I did it outside, I had to see what places would be good for a group of friends to go and if there are any places I can book near or on my birthday.

Every year, I did a small thing with just my family. No clubs or debuts (traditional Filipino version of a Quinceañera), no big celebration ever. Boring…I know. I remember Grade 3, I invited my entire class and only one girl came and ever since I just liked having intimate birthday settings. Sounds pretty pathetic, so this year I wanted to change that a bit and get out of my comfort zone.

I reserved a Mexican restaurant Wednesday night and this place that rents out ping pong tables for a group of my friends. Should be fun, but I don’t really know why I’ve been stressing about it. I have this dire need to please people! It’s ridiculous and I shouldn’t feel this way ever. I should just enjoy my birthday with people I like to hang out with. I always think they might think it’s lame. Hosting and entertaining is not really my specialty, so this is new territory.

I am however pretty proud of myself that I actually got the courage to do something out of the ordinary and invite people to my party. I’m pretty nervous and excited. I’ll be sure to post pictures of the event the day after. I’ll let you guys know how it goes.

Here’s me on my 1st birthday party and just like getting super drunk on your 19th birthday….I don’t remember any of it.


How does it feel to be 27?

Shhhhhh….Old. My 20s have been such an interesting time period, well I say this because I don’t quite remember my pubescent years besides hideous fashion choices and poor taste in guys (frosted tips were never a good look).

Any advice?

If you are reading this under the age of 20 or in your 20s, just note that no one is the perfect adult. There is no manual for adulthood, you just wing it…like I did most of my high school days. There are moments you feel like you’ve hit rock bottom and you can’t get out, don’t worry you will get out. Everything just takes time and no one will ever be the perfect adult. Social media can be your enemy at times because people may seem to have their life together and you don’t, that’s not true.

Don’t compare your beginnings to someone else’s middle.

I am the expert at failing things, I fail because I do stuff. I say you should fail and anyone that tells you that failing is wrong, is Satan LOL. When you fail you get better in life and you become stronger. Take risks as cliche as that sounds. Everything takes time and patience. I’ve mentioned in my previous blog post that you should never settle until you’ve accomplished all the things you wanted to do in life. Ever! People will tell you that hobbies can never turn into careers, don’t listen. These days anything can turn into a career with proper execution. Don’t let the doubters kill your dreams and don’t let your own doubt kill your dreams.

Never stop doing what you love and cultivate gratitude. ❤

 

 

 

First Day of Hot Yoga

This year I’ve been bad with my health. I haven’t been eating right, I watch a ton of Netflix (the abnormal amount), I use my phone a lot, I sleep late most of the time, and I’ve been slacking on doing any type of physical activity. In a way I was consciously aware that I’ve been neglecting my health and therefore causing me to stress out, be moody, and it brought out a lot of negative thoughts.

Then I had an epiphany…

I was surfing the web during my lunch hour and found Yoga. HOOOOT YOGA! I’ve heard people talk about how Yoga is great and life changing.

  1. It helps them with joint pains….I have that
  2. It helps with posture….my mom says I have terrible posture
  3. And it makes you sweat out all the bad toxins in your body….I have a load of that, and it overall makes you more flexible and yadi yadi yada

So I whipped out my credit card signed up for this deal of $40 for 30 days. Once you register you can see all the class information, workshops, programs, and you can sign up for classes. UHHH-MAAY-ZING.

Today was my first yoga class. It was an hour long regular power yoga class in a hot room. Basically the yoga instructor walks around and tells you what poses to do (i.e. upward dog, downward dog, etc). I pretty much just followed everyone and most of the stuff she said I kind of had an idea of what they were. Let me tell you this, it’s my first time being in actual Yoga studio/class. I never liked joining workout classes by myself because I found it intimidating and I’m just an awkward human so I felt like people would judge me…IDK. However, I was wrong because everyone was so friendly and it was all around a friendly atmosphere.

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If you are new to hot yoga like myself here are some tips:

  1. Get a big water bottle with a cold drink filled with electrolytes in it (it helps you have more energy through out that hour in a hot room)
  2. Take breaks if you need to because if you don’t, you’ll feel woozy like I did. I can’t deter sometimes if I’m pushing myself too hard.
  3. Bring a towel, you will sweat buckets…SERIOUSLY
  4. I would bring  my own Yoga mat if you have one, if you hate germs and it’s just better…but they do supply mats if you need it

During the cool down they hand out cold towels to put on your head and it’s feels amazing especially being in that hot room. Oh and when you walk out of that room and feel that slight wind….oh baby!

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Despite getting dizzy from the heat for like a minute or so (what an amateur lol), I must say I feel so much better. Like my body feels like it realigned itself. I honestly feel like I can be Spider-Man and can swing thru buildings. My legs/feet used to hurt when I sit for awhile and stand afterwards, but they don’t hurt surprisingly. I also feel like I have more energy now.

If you haven’t tried yoga, I highly recommend it. I just signed up for 4 more classes next week. I feel like this is going to be my new thing!

After seeing half my family experiencing all kinds of illnesses, I took it upon myself to try and change my lifestyle and I’m glad I found something that works. I also enjoy HIIT cardio as long as I have company. I say just get out there and do more for your health, these days it’s so easy to get caught up with the stresses of life or because we enjoy food too or enjoy a lot of the things that make us more tired or negative that we neglect being healthy.

I was always reluctant on joining classes with people, but I did it. These past few months have seriously made me reevaluate myself. I think once you realize something wrong or you feel like you’re not yourself, it could be your lifestyle choices. As you reach your mid 20s, that’s a crucial time to really look at signs and not slack on our health. It was good back when we were 12 and could stuff 10 donuts in one sitting and not look fat, but it’s soooooo much harder to lose the weight you gain from eating out everyday at 26.

So what do I think of yoga? From a scale of 1 to 10, I give it a solid 10.5.

The place I chose is a company called Power Yoga. If you are in Canada definitely check out their website and see the various programs/workshops they offer. They are pretty good over there. 🙂

 

 

It’s okay to be sad sometimes

 

In the moment of impact (i.e. breakup, job loss, death), sometimes things…no matter how minor or drastic happens in our lives can make us feel defenseless. Yes, at that very  moment it sucks because you’ve invested yourself in it, you’ve put in the effort…you tried you’re very best. First thing to overcome loss is, to acknowledge that you did everything you could in your power for something that wasn’t meant for you. It’s part of life to experience these moments. You probably feel or felt that that was it for you…he or she was it and you would never find anyone else or that was your dream job, you don’t know or want anything else. Failure or loss is one step closer to finding your true calling so don’t worry your little heads.

You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream

At that very moment you experience it even weeks after, you will feel it and it hurts like a bitch. God, if I had a nickel for every person that told me “don’t be sad” I’d be rich. Yes, it’s not good to be sad, it’s not good to put yourself down. It’s also not good to bottle those feelings up. Release every emotion you have…express it in whatever way you want.

  • cry
  • cry watching When Harry Met Sally or Pretty Woman
  • write it out on paper, rip it to shreds, and burn it
  • scream into a pillow
  • scream in a secluded outdoor spot
  • slam poetry
  • join boxing

When you release all these emotions you are paving the path/easing in to letting go. You are born to feel, so don’t let someone tell you not to be what you are or  tell you how you feel in the current moment. Who are they to tell you that? I know it could be that they are trying to help, but I don’t think that’s the right way to go about it. In order to find true happiness within yourself is:

  • accepting it happened…so yes, it’s okay to be sad…it’s NORMAL
  • knowing you did everything you could…you tried and that’s what matters

Lastly, time heals everything. Time….time…TIMEEEE! I’m not going to lie, I didn’t see this to be true at first.

I thought my only option was to run back to the person that hurt me and was completely wrong for me because I couldn’t imagine not having them in my life. Then months went by and I realized that it was in fact true, time does heal. You grow and you begin to understand people and you realize what you want in someone or something.

I don’t see any of the problems I’ve faced as a loss, I see them as lessons learned. I see loss as motivation to do better, to be better. I see loss as a chance for me to create better opportunity. I am 25 years old, I have so much to live for and I was worried about a tiny fraction of my life and not looking at the bigger picture. Most of the time we are caught up by these changes that we forget to push forward and find solutions.

Always remember that as humans, we need to feel. Don’t feel weird for being sad or crying. Let it out because that is a chance for you to move on from it by just giving yourself time, give yourself a break. Forgive yourself and forgive others that have wronged you. Be open to new opportunities. I hope that in time, you are able to take on new challenges to love again, don’t be afraid to because life is crazy, stupid, and wonderful like that. We are all just beautiful imperfect humans, so we should help and support each other to be better.